Day 20

i couldnt sleep last night. i dont know why, maybe it was my knee again its getting worst. anyways i woke up around 4:30 went to watch some TV some of that old stuff... i felt sick very sick,

i went to the doctor this afternoon, my head was being torn apart... i was listening to some music ,standing in the portal ... to where i could spent my entire life watching that smile of yours... mum woke me up & i was having a panic attack, my heart was jumping out of my chest.its not like me to be this way... my head feels dizzi things start to rotate...

i fear you wont even think about me these days...